praise the Lord i survived today! the lessons. the swim carn. and most of all. unimaginable. i feel so accomplished running like 6+ km. woohoooo!

it was 8+ pm and i tried burglaring into my house. how ironic. its MY house. and i tried burglaring in. haha. forgot to bring keys. mom dad bro not home the nx 3 days. so first i tried to use umbrella to push open the door, after more than 10 tries definitely, i did it! but. i needed the KEY!
i tried hooking 2 umbrellas tgt to push the container on the display unit, with the keys down. to no avail. the umbrella keep swinging down.
i used the broom outside my house. not long enough.
used another different broom. STILL. not long enough
i threw my wallet. hit it and i was like 'YES!' inside my heart. not knowing i made it worse. container got pushed back.
i threw the R side of my slippers. missed.
L side of slippers. missed.
threw my umbrella. missed.
threw all there was to throw, still. no key.
i tried to use my pin to unlock the lock. DUH. FAILED. hahaha. really i think anyone who sees me doing that. humm. im breaking in in broad day light. aint i honest?! hehehee

but God alw has a plan doesnt He? xD

thats how i even thought of going down to the gym. woohoo! like the last time i step in was 5 mths back. yes yees yes. im unhealthy ><>

im so glad wance sherm and jesu enjoyed the chocos i gave and the letters!!! hahaha xD yay. i love blessing ppl now. like seeing those grins from ear to ear make me feel so happy! and i guess this is the way i can show them i really treasure them and enjoy their accompaniment? ;)

im counting down now. 6 more days before i turn 16. yaikes. 16. sweet 16. when i was 13 and looked at my 16 yr old cousin, i said to myself--- aiyo.. she so old already, i dont want to be that old. but now thinking abt it. 16 is preety young eh? esp in e310. mixing with those oldies (hehehe) make me feel like im like a kid, like xiao hai zi. but well, sometimes i cant wait to grow up. but sometimes im awaiting for the clock to stop ticking. youth. we've gotta enjoy it and make every moment out of it because its only ONCE you get to be a youth! so im gonna do all i can to make this stage of my life an enjoyable and memorable one. and im really really so touched by how thoughtful my dear friends are! they suggested a beach party (cos obviously my mom is not gonna hold me one >< wh is totally unfair. but well.) and they are gonna bring food and stuff and i'll spend my bdae with them there!!! woohoooo!! (hopefully this works out. hee)

time and life just pass and i think the nx time i will actually notice this, im alr a lao tai po. i dont want my teenage days to pass so quickly. esp when im being around people my age. it just seem like, yeah, we are half grown adults, therefore concluding with a half-full maturity, yet we have the energy and craziness and childish sides of us where we crap and joke and laugh like nobody's business. and one thing i must say. we are INNOCENT. xD a term has passed just like that. reflecting on wtv happened. only thing i can say. it really is God's love and mercy which carried me thru these 3 months. seriously. i cannot imagine days without Him?

within 2 months. first A backslided. then N backslided recently. she told me today. i was shocked. i wanna bring them back. and to think all was ok for N altho i know she has not exp God. maann.. its hard. she has totally shut her door. and this door doesnt have a keyhole. everything def is not a coincidence. who knows God is testing me. or maybe He is using me to slowly step into their lives and bringing them back to Him. i will. i will. i wwiilllll ;) no matter how long it takes. and today was just woah. i just realized God has placed the favour of people over me. and He has really extended my network of friends. i suddenly know so many ppl. frm sec 2, 3, 4. and its great! i can reach out to more friends! but reaching out to more friends = more time spend. today, just thru swim carn, i got to talk to people whom ive seldom talked to. praise the Lord. He is unlocking the locked doors. all i have to do is to push them open. ;)

much more to say. and ive got poems to add. but im sleeppyy.. good night everyone. sry for sucha long post.