EMERGE
o gosh ive got ssooo much to blog abt my minds like going fuzzy wuzzy now.
ok wait. one thing ive gotta say. and PROMISE you. EMERGE ROCKS MY WORLD. i dun mind having it like every hols. its great! and power of God, presence of God is so strong, the HOly Spirit flows thru the place like a river of living water. and if its gonna come like a tsunami, man! i'll be more than happy. and praise the Lord! the hunger for Him is cmg back! i see my breakthru! im in the process. its so easy to draw the presence of God down now when i pray and im so thankful for it. Father, dont take the HOly Spirit away from me again please :) ytd when pst was mentioning the stages one goes thru when one loses the hunger for God.. ive been thru EVERY stage. from first losing this passion, then this strength to do anythg, then succumbing to temptations of the world (which i really really did, and in the process did many wrong things and have to suffer conseq) not being to resist in the Spirit from turning left or right on this straight narrow road, and then losing the love for the lost blah blah blah. EXCEPT the last stage. death. which was aft it. and praise the Lord He picked me up again. hallelujah!
Father,
i surrender all to You Lord
take all of me, for all of You
this is my heart,
make it Your sanctuary
for nobody else but Jesus ONLY You
emotions have been stirred. and only if its in Your will Lord, not let me think abt it. Your will be done and not mine. my life belongs to You. You created me Father.. not at this point. dont let this take control of my focus Jesus.. because all i WANT right now is you ONLY..
anw this aftn went with jeff to buy his BIG earring, and seriously its BIG. guys these days are hiao man! muaha! and.. i so love the aunty. woohoo! she said the 2 words- "guo shi"
*cheers* yea ok but those earrings so suit that beng. hoho!
and i feel so blessed. he bought me meiji chocos! and and and seriously a miracle happened. aft svc mel went to buy cheese nachos. and aft all the pigging we were left with a few more chips and lil cheese left. so i went to the stall and asked for more cheese and then the guy was saying sure! no problem! we'll give you free of charge. and he asked the helper to scoop a big scoop of cheese. next he said "hey i tel you wat.." before i knew it, he took a big scoop of CHIPS for me. for free ok! praise the lord la! if this is not blessings from heaven wat can it be my friend? ;D AND THEEENN.. when i came home i found that dad placed 10dlrs on my table. like man.. TRIPLE blessings! praise the Lord! its quite awhile since dad like just placed money on my table other than allowance? =D
seriously let me say sth.. i really want the Lord now and not His blessings. i want to know Him more intimately than lovers. more personally then even my best friends or my parents. because He is my Daddy God. also i realized blessings come when u dont expect them, when u are least hard up for them. seek God. dont seek Him because of His blessings but bcos you wanna know him. for HIm to be your best friend. seek first His kingdom and all His righteousness and all will be added unto You.
and He placed in me this compassion once again. simple act of helping an old man today but the joy that came overflowed. when i saw him while i was on the way to bugis, it felt like the HOly Spirit knocking on my heart, and i was moved. help him, and the joy of helping cannot be described. it feels like the Holy Spirit in me rejoicing. my heart WAS cold and frozen. it was like the ice bergs you find in the atlantic. worst stil. even which the heat of the sun could not melt. every tear shed for God seemed so rare, like a drop of water found in the desert. each time i kneel on my knees seemed like an eclispe happening. but only God can do it. only He can warm me up again
she wants to be taken deeper in love with Him. she wants her spiritual eyes and ears to be opened. to hear the whispers of the Lord. she feels His presence once again. keep her mind focussed on the lord. let her heart be kept only for Him
(12:11:00 AM)
