emergeD
good morning world.. its 2.26am in the morning but ive got to blog it down
seems like a twinkle of an eye and emerge has ended. im sad cos im so gonna miss south :( and guess wat?! SOUTTTTHHHH'S THE CHAMPION!!! we've got first for POS, ANNNDD for overall!!! woohoooo!! i really believe all these was by the grace of God. we have glorified Him! hallelujah! all the things we've been thru.. all the long hours of practices.. wow.. looking back, it feels like i've just been on a journey. standing at the front today.. getting all the priviledges of looking at preetttyy sun, and catching all the streamers that were falling, getting an up close view of the fireworks, all i can say is amazing. and our church is an amazing church because we serve an amazing God! amen? ;D standing on the chairs and cheering, tearing and kneeling before the Lord tgt, crying and hugging each other while looking back at this journey and the friendships we have made. AWESOME.
i feel that something happened in the spiritual realm. my final breakthru came! ptl! it feels like this punching gloves were on, this burning fire, and i punched out of the box! i felt faith exploding. purpose returning. i felt the burden of the salvation of the lost once again. and it seemed like the Lord spoke to me. tiff and i.. the only regular chc members.. we have to carry the burden of revival of RG with us from now on.. bcos God wants to use ppl who are knowledgeable, and capable and i believe many are potentials in RG. these are the ppl who are gonna be influential in the world. and if they can spread the love of Christ given the opportunity.. wow..
and with all my heart i'll say.. Lord, take all of me for all of you, for my life belongs to You
i dont like it when im emo drained. and im tired. louisa commented that -------. shhh. not telling. i dont like this at all. its either God or ---------. how can i focus on both? really Father help me. my mind's in a whirl. my heart's caught in a tornado. make my heart Your sanctuary Lord, for you only.. how can i split it into 2 and give you only a portion of it, You are my Daddy God. i tried to pray, and i wanna believe these distractions will leave soon. i used to think how nice. but no. now tt it is. its really not sth i want. take me to the Holy of Holies. now that i find it easy to usher in Your presence, let me not take it for granted. let me not forget You. thank You for the best friend u have given me. and im not gonna exchange the Holy Spirit for anyone. really. i can, i must curb all this emo feelings and thoughts.
im sleepy. yawns.
done. its 3am.
i know ive emerged. but there's one thing to overcome. that.
(2:29:00 AM)
