im so blessed with sat's and sunday's msg, including cgm's msg.. it was woah..no words can describe really how it impacted me.and i dont wanna be just a listener, but a doer of the word, because as wat pst robb thompson said that he who only listens to the word deceives himself..
the presence of God during cgm was so tangible.His love, His peace, His love overwhelmed me and His power was moving.i let go of the bottled up feelings of hurt, disappointment and anger, with the people around me, and not denying stms i do feel disappointed with God..i felt His healing, i felt His love, and i feel that its so easy to love the people around me suddenly..like how i actually encouraged and comforted sis when she got ticked off by mum n dad.i can nv imagine doing that before.
but i just got screamed and yelled at by my parents.bcos sis went out of the hse to take a breather, i felt that i was used as the punching bag for all their frustrations and fiery anger.every word they said,pierced my heart like a dagger..i felt so... hurt. every word they said were like fire bolts charging towards me.. i dont wanna blog anythg down or say anythg hurtful in the heat of the moment..
Lord
take away these hurts
let me find comfort,love and peace in Your presence
Lord
pour Your Spirit upon me
Your Spirit of love
you are my hiding place
let me hide in Your warmth embrace
Lord i know that the old man is dead
yet im alive
with the Holy SPirit that is in me
let me live for You
not even for myself
i wanna cling on to Your promises
never slipping away from You
never slipping away from the destiny Youve set before me
never slipping away from fulfilling that first works
never slipping away from that first love i had for You
that those who endure till the end will be reward
with the crown of life
Father, use me, pick me up, heal this heart
this soul
this spirit
that this filled vessel can be used to bring in other empty vessels to be filled
Lord place in me Your heart
a heart that knows how to deal with disappointments
hurts
anger
a heart that has such a big capacity to love
to love enemies
to love the people who have been a disappointment
for how are we different from the world
if we only love those who love us?
Father place in me Your heart
to accept everyone around me
to spread the love of Christ
and to cope with all these stress
all is possible thru Christ in me
THank You for dying on the cross
Jesus
i call Your name
i place my trust into Your hands
let go, let God
(9:55:00 PM)
