wow. i got so impacted by FOP and CHC's 17th anniv! x) the presence during praise and worship, the word, esp today. it felt like a revelation, a personal one, on the power of imagination. pst told us to have faith in God, and we must learn to imagine what we can achieve in future, because as long as we can imagine, no doubt God can fulfill it and make it come to past. imaginations are limitless. and above that, God does exceedingly abundantly of wtv we can imagine. usually when pst tell us that, i'll just go "yup ok" in my heart. but today it wasnt the same. there was a conviction. there was this power in that word that came to me. and if i believe in God, believe in myself, if i have a vision of my future, there's nothing that can stop me, because when Jesus dies on the cross, He was all for me. it felt so real. the Holy Spirit felt so real. He IS real.
in times of troubles, there's alws this giant stopping us, the only way we can overcome it is to grow and be stronger and bigger than that giant. and God is a BIIGGGG God. God is a great God. i never knew how big He is till today! x) but wow. He holds the universe in His palms. thats how big He is. and He chose to live in ME. Father expand my inner capacity. renew my thinking, and the greatness of this love. truly, He who is in me is greater than he in the world.
during the past week or so, i ask myself how my heart seemed so hardened towards God these days. and i look back to the period of my salvation. in those times, each time i came before God, worshipping Him, my heart gets so easily melted by His presence and love, i get so easily touched by His overwhelming love, uncontrollably weeping before Him, expressing that deep love and reverence for Him. but now, occasionally, worshipping feels just like singing songs. stms it lack that passion for it to rise up to God like sweet aroma. it feels so hard to get touched by God's love, no matter how much i know and believe that He gave His all for me when He died on the cross. and during worship today, i asked God how i can feel that precious touch from Him again. i felt Him telling me that deep down inside, those unforgiveness and anger(altho i dont bear any grudges against anyone), those accumulated bottled up feelings at the bottomest pit of my heart is like a barrier stopping God from touching it. joe pringlE(no S! xP) ministered to us so well. what he said is so true. we are the best worship leaders. we make the choice to come before God and touch Him with a pure heart, to surrender and pour out our all for Him as He did for us. we gotta make a choice to rise above all our weariness. it felt like wtv he said was from God to me. i stretched out my hand and told God i surrender everything to Him. my frustrations, my hurts, my distractions. and His overpowering love came pouring and tears flowed. thats the way i always want it to be. my heart so open to the Lord, for a precious touch from Him every single day, to be so pure hearted, so true to God. to love Him with that first love. i dont wanna take the Holy Spirit for granted. i dont..
i wish i had the heart of a child. uncontaminated from all the dust of this brokendown world. with child like faith and that genuine love for God. innocent. pure hearted. Father let me stay pure before you.
im coming back to the heart of worshipwhen its all about Youits all about You Jesusi'll bring you more than a songmore than a songhumans all show favouritism but there's a line to be drawn.. stms it gets overboard?
(8:45:00 PM)
