thx gid, for that nearly-an-hour talk. ive learnt so much. wat fen say is true..God has a reason for putting us with the people we are with today to learn from them, to be prepared to attain that destiny He has in stored. aft all the knwldg ive gained, its time to apply them, to walk the walk.
love indeed endures, it isnt like passion. love is giving, without expecting any return. i long to love them both with the love of Christ.. Father, i take those hurts, those unpleasant memories, and nail it to Your cross. take it forever away from me Lord.. take it away. let me be strong and brave, as gid said, strong means not moving back, brave-to move forward. i dont wanna live in the past, i dont.. Lord, let me be like Jesus.. loving others more than myself. placing them, their needs, before mine.. pour down this spirit of love please.. Your spirit of love which oversees all sins.. Father let me let me receive Your forgiveness, to likewise have that same grace and forgiveness you have, to look past those who have trespassed against me, to pour out tt unconditional love upon them.. Yes Lord, you want my obedience more than any sacrifice.. let me walk this walk right with You Lord.. esp with my parents.. i wanna love them, i do, very much. just take away any barrier coming between us.. let me be slow to wrath and slow to speak.. let me reply with a gentle answer, let this tongue not be the cause of my sin.. life and death is in the power of this tongue. let me speak encouraging words.. Father give me this strength.. i wanna be like You so much i cant describe, yet stms i feel that i fall short of this strength i need.. but i know that no matter what, Your Holy Spirit is here to help me.. Father, im crying out to You for this strength and courage. i wanna let the rels at home take priority right now, but i need this love to endure, i dont wanna give up time and again like how i did previously. justice can only be found in God, not in this broken down world.. whatever accusations there may be, unjustified comments which hurt more than any piercing sword, i want to lift them to You in advance, i want to forgive them in advance. i love You Jesus, and i wanna love them with this love i have for You
<3 feli
(11:32:00 PM)
