A day in His presence is indeed better than a thousand elsewhere.
as i came before His throne,
yet again, to seek Him, i know there had to be a change.
i had to find that secret place where it's only me and the Lord, and no one in the world would be able to find me.
i shut the door behind, and told God
Father, i leave everything at the foot of Your throne and just wanna come into this hiding place where it's only You and i.
initially when i started praising, worries and burdens of this world couldnt seem to leave my mind, so i continued praising... and praising... and praising. i praised till i felt that my spirit was lightened, till i felt that it was opened to receive a touch from God.
when i went into worship, i was mentally and physically tired. i was so afraid it would have been
yet-another-quiet-time, but as i yearned so much to just seek a visitation from Him, i made the decision to zoom into a dimension where i know only exist the 2 of us.
as i worshipped, as i focused on God, not only in my mind but in my heart and spirit, His presence began to flood my soul. i was overfilled, i was overwhelmed, i was broken. simply, the heart of worship.
Lord of my life
i love YouLord of my days
i trust in Youliving beneath the shelter of Your wings,my heart's safe.when i am lost You find me
when i'm in need You shelter me
Lord of my life You are my secret place
Clothe me in Your presence Lorddraw me near to Youall my heart i long to give to You.
Living to be near You Lord
i long to see Your face
Lord forever you're my Secret Place.
i couldnt express the intimacy with God during that 2 and a half hours. i couldnt express the peace i felt when i decided to abandon all i've got, and all that i'm chasing after, all that i'm holding on to, all the cares of this world. even right now as i'm typing, i feel the Holy Spirit with me.
that's where i wanna be, every single day.
when i finally ended the time of solitude with God, i opened the door, only to find the hall pitch dark. realised that my whole family's gone for dinner. gave mum a call, and she was saying she tried to call me from outside manymanymany times but i didnt respond so they decided went ahead. really didnt have the slightest clue of them taking their leave, which in fact, is quite hilarious upon thinking back. i was literally in the secret place where no one in the world can find me! xD i'm not saying that we should all transform into some uncontactable strange mouse-in-a-hole, but sometimes maybe we all need such a time as this, so engrossed with God. how cool is that. *grin* xD
but one thing i've truely learnt
that
if i've tried my bestand things dont work outbut i know that in all that i do, i seeked the Lord firstthen it's ok,because i didnt let God down,and it's all that matters .:)
there's really nothing to big or too hard to conquer if i will just believe and trust in Him.
most of all, majie said something that really impacted me ytd.
she said that joy, is the
fruit of the Spirit.
thinking about it, it's true! i mean it's stated in the bible, and it really is one thing to read, and another to have the conviction and revelation of the Word! i caught a revelation. since the joy is the fruit of the Spirit, it takes time to cultivate, but when it ripens to a good fruit, then it should never leave and be taken away no matter what the circumstances are.
i know it for myself through my own experiences, that carrying the joy of THE LORD, is really different than the mere joy,laughter and happiness you get from this world and the things which happen in life.
i'm so assured, and so certain that things are going for the better, if i would just believe.
all things work for the good of those who LOVE THE LORD. during cgm on fri, it was towards the end of the meeting that God spoke to me. He said that i dont need to focus so much on all the other things, explicitly, my studies. i just need to focus on loving Him, because when i do, all things work for the good!
we all have a greeeaattt destiny ahead! :D
i wanna guard the peace which guards my heart
i wanna guard the assurance which guards my heart
by
trusting in Him.
i've truely experienced something which i've never used to understand, and thats--- how people say they find comfort in their own weaknesses and negative circumstance, and it is definitely-absolutely-certainly-a-hundred-percent true. Just the past 1 month itself, i've been staying within my comfort zone of weaknesses, and kind of having a " resigning-to-fate" attitude. eg during lecture, i'll be comfortable and find it normal not to understand whats being taught, that the moment i understood a few, i felt uncomfortable.
it's time to breakthrough
it's time to renew my mindset
it's time to venture out into the deep
it's time, to let God have His way in all of my life
hahahahhaa
ok now my family is back.
I LOVE JEESSUS!
(9:12:00 PM)
